Day 18: The BegENDing

Today is the last day of Week Two Sacred Circularities Hoop Dance & Movement Meditation Retreat. Week Three begins tomorrow. I can feel the energy cultivating for me and the others who have been here since Week One. After SC is complete I am performing two different nights at Bali Spirit Fest. Dreams really do come true! These are dreams I have been curating since 2012 when I was in Australia. Bali felt so close yet so far away. It’s beautiful and challenging all at once, because the one person I wish could experience this with me is thousands of miles away at his new house with his beautiful children in Austin, TX. It feels amazing to be living out my most personally rewarding achievements, and at the same time I feel like theres a bit missing, and it’s my Beloved. I so wish he could be here, being my DJ, my right hand man, my best friend. I grew up an only child, so it’s easy for me to be on my own on big trips like this, however, after we went to Peru together I realize how much I love traveling with the one I love most. We look after each other and lift each other up. Le Sigh. He is as supportive as he can be considering he is in Texas with his three children, doing the “Dad of the Year” thing. We love each other very much and are trusting that this distance for two months will only make us stronger. In the meantime....I do my makeup for the Instructor Photo shoot. Glitter...check. Feathers....check. White Light Attire....check. 
Camera Ready! 

After we took a few group photos and individual shots it was time for African Dance. I observed African Dance instead of fully participating this time to let my ankle that I twisted fully heal. It was so much fun to watch all of my sisters shake, sweat, laugh and cry and heal with dance. Malaika is such a beautiful facilitator of shamanic movement and female empowerment. I have mentioned it in previous blogs but I am so happy and honored to have studied with Malaika. Her mentorship and movement inspire many.

After breakfast was the Closing Circle. There were tears of joy and gratitude all around. This event changes peoples lives. Bali changes peoples lives. Bali plus Sacred Circularities alters the way people perceive the world around them forever, so naturally the Closing Circle is a sobering moment for some as they realize they now must return to ‘real life’. There was one extra special moment where a little girl who had been present for the week, named Shanti, was passed the microphone to share her experience and she said her name (she is three years old) and then in the cutest little voice she sang ‘Let It Go’ in Spanish (she is also Peruvian). Then I cried because it is really special to hear a little girl sing her sweet song without abandon. No self doubts. Only self expression! It was a heart melting moment for us all, hearing her angelic voice remind us of why we are all hear....to express our inner child FULLY. This Closing Circle was special because it was all women. There is something to be felt when dozens of women gather together to celebrate being in their bodies, their communities and their creativity. I love this hoop community like family, and that will never change.

The latter part of the afternoon consisted of an Instructor Meeting and a few private sessions of Human Design Readings. Serving and sharing with my community will always be at the forefront of my passion and purpose. I am learning how to balance my family of heart and hoop, my travel, my writing and my personal practice of dance training. This will be my focus upon return to my real life. I say ‘real life’ with gratitude because this actually IS my Real Life! From Hoop Gatherings to Festivals to exotic lands...it’s been my real life. After this trip and my month on Maui for Omni Love’s birth, I will be stepping into a reality that is less travel and more focus on work and family, so I am really soaking up the epicness of this exotic adventure. I am grateful to be able to create my life exactly as I choose, and I love every aspect of it. If you are interested in creating a life you love, and wanting to talk with me about how to begin that journey, click here and tell me about it. I’ll listen, and we can talk! Thank you, as always, for coming with me on this unique experience. I look forward to the 21 days ahead. 
Staying Present,

Shellie White Light

Day 17: Amazing Grace

Today is the last full day of Week Two Sacred Circularities. As soon as I got out of bed my foot reminded me about the little tumble I took on the bridge. Hmmmm... a hobbling kind of day. Take it slow, take it easy, breathe deep and stay present. This is my mantra. This is my pace. I have been running all around writing and teaching and taking classes and eating with friends and Skyping with Kellen and just having a grande ole time! But now, The Universe says “Slow Down”. I listen, thankful for the grace and gentility of this tiny lesson, that could have been much worse. Today we go In Depth the Gail, Tammy and myself, and have one super fun workshop with Gail as well. I love learning from these amazing women, truly. They inspire me beyond my realm of mental comprehension. I will admit here and now that I never feel ‘like the best hooper in the room’, even though I feel very confidant with what I teach, way I teach it, and the clarity it brings my students. I feel acknowledged for who I am and what I offer, and I also feel very inspired to take it to the next level with my hooping, so that I can continue to inspire the community on multiple levels. Today I was able to inspire during my In Depth in a way that is new for me, and people appreciated very much.

In Depth with Tammy FireFly was such a sweet and intimate experience. She is so beautiful! I remember when I met Tammy in 2010 in San Diego, on my first round of touring with the Qi Revolution. She was walking up to the event with hula hoops, staves and poi in hand, and I had my multiple hoops walking into the same door. We were instant sisters. To hear her speak on her journey, her size, her methods of training and her dedication to health and well being was magically inspiring. I am so grateful to be able to witness Tammy ‘do her thing’ with such grace, beauty and majestic quality. She may only be 4’9”, but has the BIGGEST heart and the BRIGHTEST talent! I love you FireFly! Thank you for being in my life :)

The “Two Hoops One Hand” Workshop with Gail was so much fun and very mentally stimulating. I have taken a workshop from her on this material once before at HoopCamp and have been practicing her teachings ever since. I love it! It hurts a little in the beginning to find the control on your hands, fingers and forearms, but the rewards are great and very visually pleasing to an audience. We worked also on Four Hoops Two Hands and I think this is where the majority of time in training will be spent. I really like the shapes that four hoops can create and love showing the world the sacred shapes of hoop dance. Geometry makes the world go round, and hoop dance is a mystical story being told by the dance of our bodies and circles, and very heart opening to all who witness. Thanks for showing us what hours of training a day looks like, Gail! Practice More! 

In Depth with Gail was equally inspiring and heart opening as Tammy’s. Gail didn’t start hooping until she was 29! She is so badass you would think she’s been at it for a lot longer. She was inspired by a young girl in Bolivia, while training for her previous profession as a physiotherapist. Being from a small town in Belfast, Ireland, she is absolutely the lead hoop icon of the flow community there, and around the world for that matter. She has the tattoo on her feet for us all to be reminded; “Practice More”. Yes, Gail, yes. We can see how her hours and hours of practice daily pays off. Her performance is always moving to the depths of the soul and her technique is flawless. She is so innovative, and has inspired me to get back to the roots of my own practice....my training. I love you, Gail. It is an honor to teach at the same retreat with you and all of these other phenomenal women.

In Depth with Myself. Ha! It actually did go quite deep. I had a hurt foot, so while all of the other hoopers danced their most inspiring dance at the opening of their In Depths, I was ‘forced’ to do things a little differently. I sang. I sang my heart open to the tune of the first song I remember learning, ‘Amazing Grace’. Singing in front of my peers is a new experience that I am embracing in a beautiful light. Singing and Storytelling. At the same time. This is my newest expression, my most authentic art. I shared my story, from beginning to present moment. I spoke about my up bringing as a southern baptist preachers daughter, ever-evolving relationship with my amazing father and mother, which was the most inspiring portion to many, bringing tears to the eyes of women who could relate. I mentioned how my hoop career was fueled by a breakup, and how I would not tolerate being with a man who could not appreciate the way I was blossoming and growing into my highest self. I got raw around my issues in my late teens and early twenties with alcohol, drugs, promiscuity, food, tobacco, and depression. I shed some light for those who have battled with mood disorders and a lack of self love. It was so refreshing and liberating to be able to tell my story, be heard, loved, valued, and honored for it. “You are a wonderful story teller”, was the feedback from every participant there and many of the other instructors. I realize this is truly my highest calling, and am choosing to embrace this. Inspirational Speaking, Motivational Improv, and Stand Up Comedy here I come! ;) 
Anyone willing to book me for my first gig as a Storyteller with a Circular prop?! 

All in all, it was a very sweet closing to the gathering in it’s fullest expression. I had a very fun Human Design Reading with a 21 year old participant who was so grateful and loving about her session afterwards. She even paid me extra. It feels so amazing to assist people on their own evolution. I am feeling Bali mold me and curate my offerings to be of the highest service to my fellow flow folk, and for the masses. I feel the book brewing, and promise that after this 40 Day Blog Challenge is over, the books are my next project. Stay tuned and sign up for my mailing list so that when it is complete, you can snag a free copy! Blessings and Beauty abound from BALI ~
One in the Sacred Story,

Shellie White Light

Day 15: Nyepi

I turned off my phone before I went to sleep last night just to see how long I could actually sleep, without an alarm. I went to sleep right at midnight, after a beautiful skype session with Kellen and his kids. I was teaching them some Indonesian sayings and we were all blowing kisses back and forth. After that I slept soundly for an entire 11 hours! I arose naturally this morning around 11AM, to the sounds of little kids screaming joyously by the pool. Noise? On Nyepi? Hmmm...I could tell this was going to be an interesting day.

The sun was shining so naturally I wanted to go to the pool. Luckily, there are three pools at Ananda. I went to the one I like the most (the lovely infinity pool) but there was an entire family of Japanese tourists there being super loud, not just the kids. The adults were all talking to each other, and actually encouraging the little kids to yell and scream all they wanted. I found myself slightly offended. I went up to the Dad and said “Do you all know this is an International Day of Silence? It would be nice if you could at least lower your voices a little. I understand you have small children and that’s one thing, but could you ask the adults in your group to not speak as much and so loudly?” The woman replied with “We are trying”, as she continued to chat with another lady. Even after my request, they all got even louder. I decided to just go to another pool. The man couldn’t understand why I wanted to leave and was even shouting at me as I left. I just don’t get it. I don’t understand why people wouldn’t want to at least somewhat honor this day. I suppose I am just very into fully experiencing the cultural ways. I also suppose being a tourist myself at a hotel with a bunch of other tourists who can’t leave the property is an equally powerful part of my experience.

At the other pool there were still a whole bunch of people talking. I didn’t bother to ask anyone to shut up even though I wanted to. It was a practice to have compassion and to not judge. This is a Balinese Holiday, and these people are not Balinese and just because I think it’s awesome to observe a day in silence doesn’t mean any other Westerner does. I just wish people would be more respectful of those of us who were actually looking forward to a day of total silence. But you know, that’s what I get for having expectations. So, I turned inward and just absorbed the sunshine and swam laps for a good long while.  It’s hard to hear people talking while under water. I rested in the sun and before I knew it everyone had left the pool and I was actually alone and not in hearing range of another humans voice. That was a special moment. I slipped in and out of sleep, hearing only the sweet hum of insects and the breeze in the trees. A moment of bliss indeed.

After I realized I was getting a bit burned, I headed to the lotus pond for some meditation. I sat observing the lotuses, the seeds, and the fallen petals in the pond. This place has been such a solace for me every morning and evening the entire time I have been here at Ananda. Today I asked the pond if I could take a piece of it with me, to plant in Austin. She gave me seven seeds. They rest on my altar, and I will plant them in a handmade lotus pond when the time is right. Whether they grow or not, at least I have a little bit of Bali with me in my home soil. 

After my time with the lotuses I felt the call of the hoop. I made my way to the wantalon to get in a solid and solitary hoop practice. There were already quite a few hoopers already in there, hooping silently and with focus. This ended up being my favorite hoop jam yet! It was inspiring to see everyone working on their own stuff, not just techniques we have learned over the last couple of weeks. I felt like everyone was really riding the wave and honoring the silence. I got super sweaty and tired after a few hours of solid practice and decided to beat the mosquitoes back to my room. I took a shower and began to write. Bailey came in and said a few words that I am glad she said. She invited me to the rice patty to watch the stars and the fireflies. Of course, I said “yes”.

This was literally the highlight of my Nyepi experience. I found myself in deep gratitude and prayer as I witnessed more stars tonight than I have seen in the 15 days I have been on this island. The stars were so bright, as well as the green and yellow fireflies that blinked by the thousands. The beauty compounded upon itself as the lightening flashed in the distance. With all of this brilliant light in the night, my prayer was simple. A reflection of the present moment. “Great Spirit, let me truly be a bright light in the night. Let my soul serve as a beacon for those who wish to know you, find a clear path to you. May my light be an inspiration, a guide and a service to all who see it. Amen. Aho.” As I watched the fireflies light up the darkness, and the stars speckle the sky, with the lightening periodically pulsing, I felt at One with the forces that be. This is becoming more and more regular, these feelings of being At One With the Universe. On the same page. Speaking the same language. I have always felt relatively tapped in, but once I started hoop dancing, the shapes starting to show me a truth free of story, dogma or creed. Since then, my path has been a clear display of the magic the universe offers, each moment so special that I find myself continually in childlike wonder. Tonight was one of those moment, one of those precious moments, where I recognized that the ‘specialness’ of the day was hiding in the darkness as light. The bugs, the beauty, the brilliance all came together to help me remember who I am more clearly. The stark contrast of light in the darkness always helps to remind me. White Light. We are all White Light. I just happened to make it my name, so that I forget less frequently. 

This Nyepi New Years Day has been a blessing. There will always be sounds when it’s meant to be quiet, and always be light in the night. We live in a world of duality, and for this I am grateful. We learn through contrast, and our wisdom is greater from it. I feel like today was as beautiful as it could have been, and I feel beyond blessed to be here in Bali during this most auspicious time in history. Thank you, as always, for coming along with me on my journey. I look forward to taking you deeper, as the days to come reveal the magic that has been cultivating and culminating. 
One in the Circle,

Shellie White Light



Day 12: Activating the Light Body

I teach my first workshop of the week today! Eeek! Nerves of excitement and happiness are tingling all over. My first stop on the way to breakfast was the lotus pond. There are at least five in full bloom. These lotuses have been a major theme of inspiration for me. My dreams are literally unfolding before me. To be teaching hoopers in BALI how to spin, breath, love themselves and grasp the concepts of creation that move me to the core is the most amazing gift, privilege and blessing Spirit could bestow upon me. I just keep giving thanks, staying present in each beautiful millisecond, and exuding joyful prayers of praise with each fleeting moment. The days are moving quickly, and I know that soon this will be just another reflection in the lotus pond of life. A petal on the surface. This waking dream will wither into memory, making room for a different dream, a new blossom. Life is constant with changes, and new beginnings. As I prepare for my workshop, other classes, and private breath work sessions today, I am also preparing to go to Tempak Siring Water Temple and ‘The Mother Temple’ tomorrow. This is an excursion that I am taking on my own, outside of the group, as I couldn’t go last week due to my moon cycle. I can feel the energies culminating before Nyepi, and I am feeling very blessed to be able to take my trip to the Water Temple now so I can put in my prayers before this very special and sacred day.

After Orientation, Instructor Demos, and breakfast, workshops began.

The first two workshops of the day were so awesome! Gail taught us all kinds of amazing tricks that kept us on our toes. “If it was easy, you wouldn’t come to Bali to learn it!”, she lovingly exclaimed when we were all like “It’s haaaaard!” I have to giggle as I type this because I love Gail so much and her style of hooping just melts my mind into a puddle. I learned a lot in Gail’s first class, and remembered that even if I don’t get a trick right away, I have plenty of time to learn and integrate! I’m looking forward to studying more with Gail this week. She’s simply incredible. On her feet she has tattooed “Practice More”. Damn straight. I’ll be taking that advice, thanks Gail :)
Tammy FireFly was up next with Aerial Silks Flexibility and Conditioning. We stretched out really well, and worked on some basic gymnastic rolls, cartwheels and other fun things before actually climbing the fabrics. Aerial dance is such a commitment! Tammy is another one that melts my mind in a totally different way; when I see her do her thing in the air I am just in awe, and VERY inspired to work on an aerial art, like Lyra. One great thing about Kellen getting a house in Austin, TX is that I will have regular access to all kinds of aerial training studios and I totally plan on taking advantage of that fact. Thanks for the major inspiration Tammy!

Lunch was very productive. Not only did I have the chocolate ball for desert (first, ha!) but I also happened to book up my entire schedule for Week Two! People are so stoked on the private breath and human design. I have one woman who has booked all four of my services: massage, breath, hoop and Human Design reading. Wow! 
Perfect client alert! :) I love it when my gifts are recognized, and being used to really help someone help themselves.

After lunch it was my time to shine. I was so grateful to sit in a circle with so many brilliant faces, talking about sustained spinning as a path to ascension, Rumi, the sacred shapes that make up our light bodies, and how to spin our prayers. I took the ladies on a journey through the foundations of breath, gaze and foot placement, setting them up for a successful spin session. We created beautiful shapes with the hoop, spinning around each other like planets, interacting with the divine guide residing within each of us. Focusing on breath and with a non-focused gaze, we whirled like dervishes, devoted to the One True Source that brought us all to this special place in time and space. I love teaching sustained spinning! It truly brings absolute joy into my humble little heart :) I had quite a few folks come tell me how much they appreciated my workshop, and that means a lot to me! I feel so vulnerable when I teach, so to hear positive feedback is always inspiring. I love you all, and want to give the best of me!

Afterwards Tiana rocked it out, as always, with her workshop Contact Connections. I really appreciate being able to dive into Tiana’s extremely insightful and kinesthetically intelligent mind/body. Her quotable quote of the day “Embrace the awkward. The awkward is where beauty lives and awesomeness resides”. Or...something like that ;)
Thanks for taking us into your inner workings, Tiana. I look forward to continuing this spiral path of learning and teaching with you at international hoop retreats! It rocks! 

Next I embraced another role that I enjoy very much. Breath Work facilitation. I had a very powerful session with a participant that booked a private session with me. She had a super potent full circle moment of clarity, and I could tell a whole world of healing took place! It is always such an honor to hold space for someone and be their cheerleader while they do their own shamanic healing, using the breath and heart beat as guide. It’s an honor to witness such profound transformation. I feel that breath by breath, we are changing our selves and changing the world in turn.

The final experience of the day was Malaika’s 5 Elements Dance Activation. YES! I became certified in this modality of teaching last October just after the Sacred Circularities Sedona Retreat. It was one of the best decisions I have ever made. Malaika has beautifully combined the sacred aspects of dance, prayer, ritual, healing, and the four directions and elements of the medicine wheel into a powerful practice that changes lives. I am honored to have studied with her and ready to begin facilitating more 5 Elements Dance Activations when I return to Maui and Austin...and beyond! 

Tomorrow I take a day away from the group to venture to The Mother Temple of Bali, where all souls return according to Balinese religion, and also to the Water Temple of Tempek Siring, where the Balinese go to purify. As the days lead up to Nyepi, I am feeling more called to participate in ceremony in traditional Balinese fashions. The energy is building, the processions and ceremonies are starting and the locals are preparing. There is magic in the air as this place begins to stir. The spirits and souls are waiting for their time...many forces are at function within each of us. Now is the time to honor, acknowledge and pray. What a blessed time to be alive.....
Om Santi Santi, 

Shellie White Light


Day 11: Self Centered

Today is the beginning of Week Two Sacred Circularities 2015. It was a pleasure and necessity for me to take some seriously playful time to myself today, to get centered for the upcoming workshops I will be sharing this week. I am teaching Sustained Spinning over the course of the next six days, and feel so grateful to be teaching in the company of Tiana Zoumer, Gail O’Brian, Tammy FireFly, Malaika Darville, Francie Fishman and Jaguar Mary X. Wow! What a powerhouse team. Today was a day for me to go inward, take some ME time, and prepare for the powerful week ahead.

I woke up this morning bright and early, got all dolled up and went out into the rising sun for a Selfie Photo Op, tutorial filming and simple admiration of a beautiful Bali Sunrise. I captured some great images of blossoming lotuses, the rice patties, and me with my hoop, all in the light of the rising sun. After a yummy breakfast with the new teachers and participants, I went to the pool for more Selfie time and some sun. A little too much sun, actually. After taking hundreds of photos (only of which a few a usable) and laying around like a little kitten I am looking like the Coppertone Baby! White Bum Red Cheeks ;) Tee hee! It was a very fun morning of creating self-portraits by the infinity pool. Afterwards I felt inspired to head to the wantilan for an in depth hoop practice. I danced and stretched and sang and hooped my heart out for what felt like hours! I am ready to begin practicing for hours and hours again everyday. I used to do that, and now with my travel schedule I have become a bit slack about it. I felt refreshed today to begin my practice anew again! It is a perfect week to recommit to my creativity. 

The Balinese people and all of us blessed to be on Bali at this time are preparing for Nypei. The locals are ceremonially cleansing their temples and creating huge demon puppets, preparing for the big Ogah-Ogah parade that scares off all of the evil spirits. Then, Nyepi is a Day of Complete Silence. No cooking, eating, talking, fires, lights, entertainment, travel or leaving the house. The airport is closed and the streets and beaches are deserted. Today as I awoke at sunrise and sat by the lotus pond for a while, I found myself looking forward to communing with these flowers and water on the Day of Silence. Today was such a lovely day self centering, and I am greatly looking forward to another day of reflection and experiencing.

The rice patties are barren now at much of Ananda. They harvested the rice, and now what was a lush green field is now a beautifully muddy terrace of lakes. A new type of beauty is there, now. Instead of green fields there are now wonderfully white birds, starkly contrasting the brown water. As the weeks come and go, and the view of the rice is ever changing, I hold on to the sweet smells in the air and the vivid colors in front of my eyes as long as I can in the moment before having to let it go. I am so grateful to be here, amongst these people, at this time, in this body, on this planet! Truly, every day I give thanks that the life I have co-created is so blessed. I must have done something right in a previous existence, as this bliss is beyond my wildest imagination.

The Opening Ceremony was tonight, and seeing the new faces was a delight! We had a very special visitor, a very kind and compassionate tabby cat graced us with it’s company and continued to hang out all night. I loved it up in the circle and carried it all around the jam later on. Putu, the Balinese Priest, was back again to perform the very sacred water and rice blessing for us for Week Two participants. It was profound to receive this amazing blessing a second time! I am honored to be able to sit in a circle and receive sacred ceremonial blessings from a traditional lineage. These types of rituals build so much power over time, and I could feel it. I feel that this place is changing me....mutating me....in a very good and gracious way!

After the ceremony with all of the flower tossing and cheering, hugging and ritual, we jammed and held space in the portal we are creating here together. I am looking forward to getting to know everyone better throughout the week, and so thankful to be in the midst of such awesome community! It is super amazing that hoop enthusiasts from ALL around the world (especially Alberta, Cananda) are inspired enough to gather together on tiny Bali. Smart folks! :)

The stars were shining as I walked back to my room. The stars were bright and the frogs and crickets were serenading my every step. In my heart a fire is kindled, warm and full of love for each woman and man here, not just at this gathering, but on this earth at this time. We are a part of something really special, and I can feel the shift culminating. This week is POWERFUL with Saturday being Nyepi, The New Moon, A Total Solar Eclipse plus Spring Equinox. Wow. That was my one word for the Opening Circle; WOW! Other participants shared their ‘one word’ for the week; words like Transmutation, Creation, Healing, Manifestation, Magic, etc. My word was simply ‘wow’, because that is exactly how I feel around all of this beauty and continual blessing. Week Two is already proving to be a climactic moment of dreams manifested, and I look forward to the string of moments that will stay in the center of my heart forever.
One in Self Love,

Shellie White Light

Day 6: The Temple Within

This morning at breakfast the lotus was closed, quiet and resting. As the sun rose and the people began to bustle, the lotus unfolded, opened, and revealed it’s beauty. This was a foreshadowing of the day that was about to unfold. The Sacred Circularities group is going to pray and cleanse at the Tempak Siring Water Temple. Because I am on my moon cycle, I cannot go. There was a small amount of disappointment, but mostly, relief. I need some self care. Instead of a trip in a van, to practice devotion in the sun in a traditional Balinese Way, I will relax by the pool, receive a massage and go to the Temple next week instead. Today, my body is my temple. The Sacred Waters are within. My rest is my devotion. Tonight is the Tribal Market and Performance Showcase, which I am honored to be Emceeing. I will be like the lotus, quiet and folded, until it is time to shine.

I took my Beloved, Kellen, on a tour around the gardens of Ananda Cottages here in Ubud, Bali via Skype. It was so fun to show him the statues adorned with offerings and the lush jungle, the expansive rice patties and the freshly blooming pink lotus. He was so happy! Just what he needed to feel included on my journey. It’s amazing how we can be thousands of miles and entire oceans and continents apart, yet feel so connected through technology and virtual face time. I loved being able to include him in my morning routine of tea, blogging and walking around these beautiful grounds. It felt like he was right here with me, and on the esoteric level, he is. Love knows no distance, no space, no time. Love just IS. It is always there, present, ready to be expressed in any and every way possible. Love is limitless. I am so grateful to know a love like this :)

Last night walking back from the drum jam, I crossed paths with a snake. It was small, thin and black. It was quite calm, actually. I was more fascinated than startled, and took it as a sign that it was time to shed some skin, shed some layers. Heal my body. This is happening naturally, and I can also assist the process. When a snake sheds it’s skin, it also sheds the skin over its eyes, leaving it blind during the final phases of the process. I feel ready for the shedding, and recognize that we don’t always see with our physical eyes the transformation occurring, but we can feel it, and know for sure that we will be renewed and refreshed on the other side. As my womb is also shedding my most inner layer; my moon blood, I release a water with a creative capacity that could have formed physical life. The Sacred Moon Water holds great life force, and I choose to use it as fuel for this creative writing project, my personal hoop practice, and honoring my body through rest and rejuvenation. There is always much to be discovered beneath the surface of the old, and exploration of the new. I loved myself up today and nurtured my ‘old’ skin that is ready for shedding with some yummy sunshine by the pool, a cooling dip, and a super deep and well deserved massage. I love this body, and vow to treat it as a temple always!

The Performance Showcase and Tribal Market went so well! Oh my goddess, the Performers were incredible. I can’t really put into words the fullness of my heart when watching these beautiful dancers express themselves in such an authentic and unique way. I was genuinely moved by each one. Lex took the stage for the VERY FIRST TIME! And totally rocked it. Luna put so much feeling and release into a tear jerking contortion hoop number. Caterina blew our minds with her debut of a six hoop routine. Tiana gracefully delivered a sweet and savory lyrical piece. The Fire Pixies (Shouniez & Shaheen) brought the delightful element of couple’s acro play into the mix for us all to adore. Each act was just perfect. All 14 of the performers had their own flavor and style, and brought so much joy to the Ubud community. Thank you to everyone who made my job as the emcee last night so wonderful by simply shining! Thanks for your courage and sharing of talents.

After a day of amazing, relaxing beauty and witnessing others shine in their light, I headed to a well known community house for an epic party. I was invited by my friend who I met in Oz but lives here, and once I got there I realized I knew at least ten people! That’s how it goes for me frequently, actually. I meet people all over the world and then meet them again in another amazing corner of the planet! I mingled and danced and chanted mantra, had some coconut cream cake and really enjoyed myself big time. I made new friends and embraced old ones. The connections here are powerful, and the web we are weaving runs deep. Roots deep. I am honored to be connected into this amazing tribe, and trust Great Spirit is weaving some Divine Magic in a very profound way. I can feel that some of the connections I made last night will come full circle soon. A lovely evening!

The whole day was just what I needed. Rest, Water, Sun and Massage for my body temple, emceeing the show for my community temple, and then some awesome dance and music for my Spirit Temple that is not seen, but being built and beautified every day. The Temple Within me is grateful for these offerings and prayers. May you honor your own body as a Sacred Temple for Great Spirit to move through you, as you, for you, with you. Allow it, and watch the miracles manifest before your very eyes!
Until Tomorrow...Shine Sweetly!
Shellie White Light






Day 5: Release

Tiny meltdown on the morning of Day 5. I woke up this morning with a stuffy nose and my moon cycle. I felt tired. I called my man and he was feeling sad we couldn’t talk more often while I am away, as we are apart right now for two whole months. I felt guilty that he wasn’t here with me, while also feeling like I had taken on too much between writing and healing work and all the workshops and such. Overwhelm! I cried. This did not help my stuffy nose...
I realized that today was a day of releasing. Pardon the details here, but I gotta be real.
A day of releasing; releasing feeling good in my body as my nose released snot and my womb released it’s monthly moon, releasing my beloved and our constant communication and releasing the need to feel energetic as I am still slightly jet-lagged. Release. Releasing tears and releasing fears. Even though I am a seasoned traveler, there are moments when I really wish I could just take quantum pause through space and time and just ‘go home’. Home? Another aspect of my life I have had to release. My home is my heart. No address, not yet anyway. 

Sigh. Tiana’s workshop helped tremendously as it was all focused on...guess what? RELEASES! The name of the workshop was literally called ‘Releases’, and focused on taking the hoop off the runways we had identified the day before and allowing it to take flight. We spent the first part of the morning tossing our hoops out of our hands and allowing them land gracefully, and glide down the runway with ease and grace. We also learned the “Infinity Toss” which required much trust and aim in the moment of release. Tossing the hoop from the back to the front, trusting our aim enough to be able to catch it in front, creating a circuit of this momentum was a process that helped me in my internal ‘letting go’. I also let go of the need to ‘get it’ right away. Releasing takes time, in more ways than one. I love how my hoop life always relates to my emotional experience. Thanks to Tiana for delivering your final workshop in a way that related to my soul and my hoop space. 

Babz took the trickery up a notch by helping us take it down a notch, all the way to our knees. Finding Your Inner ‘Kneenja’ was all about becoming badasses while leg hooping. I love to leg hoop! I found lots of satisfaction in helping some newer hoopers around me to achieve leg hooping for the first time. I was also very challenged by many postures Babz had us practice such as hooping with crossed knees, and also leg hooping in my opposite direction. Leg hooping takes hoop dance to a whole new level. It frees the arms and liberates the torso to dance dance dance in some really fun and unique ways. Also, one leg hoop balancing can lead to some striking poses and also some funky one legged expression. Babz always brings the dance element into the concepts of the tricks, and I really appreciate this. It is called Hoop DANCE after all! 

The day was already unfolding much better than the way it started. I felt like my releasing throughout the day had been a relatively graceful process. I was able to sneak in an extra phone call before lunch with my babe, and that really helped us both. He is being so supportive while I am away from him for 8 whole weeks! It’s not easy, but we feel we are growing stronger each day during this time. As we release being in each others presence each day, we are opening individually to receiving amazing gifts from Great Spirit. 

The last workshop of the day was Theta Healing with Jocelyn. A lovely mindfulness meditation helped me to finally free myself from my thoughts, and a sweet conversation about Grace reminded me to open to receive. I realized that the process of releasing can be graceful, or not. Thank God for Amazing Grace! How sweet, sweet SWEET the sound that saves a soul like me on a daily basis. There are so many tiny and not so tiny problems that come up for us, and the way we choose to view them and go through them can be graceful if we allow it. I chose to allow grace today, and the Theta meditation Jocelyn led us through was the perfect piece to complete it. I accepted the downloads from Spirit and let my body rest in it’s Theta Brainwave State. Thank you Jocelyn for taking us into still moment. This stillness allows for wonderful integration of all the joyful noise of this lifestyle we live.

After the workshops were all done I enjoyed an incredible dinner at Alchemy; a salad with all kinds of raw noodles and dressings and kimchee and spicy cashews, with raw onion bread and cashew cheese. YUM! The owner of the place thought we were a bunch of beautiful women and for that reason alone brought us a delicious plate of tapas. Wow, what a treat! Amazing food with amazing women. I love the food here, and of course all of the people too. Deliciousness on every level.

Last but not least of the day was the Drum Circle Jam with Malaika and friends. I love dancing to drum music more than anything. Dancing was the icing on the cake. Full release. Tribal rhythms and foot stomping was all I needed. Watching my sisters spin and flip and drop and glide brought so much joy to my heart. This day ended up being one of the most beautiful yet, and started off with such emotional intensity. There is a lotus in full bloom by the restaurant. At night it closes, in the morning it opens. As times are dark, our hearts close like the petals of the lotus, and as the light shines upon us, the petals open, they release, with ease and grace. Releasing is simply an opening. I am grateful for this time of opening, releasing, and really seeing. 
Shine On,

Shellie White Light