✨The Return of The Light✨

Solstice Reflections ✨🌔🌕🌖✨

Let's face some facts. As we approach Christmas, if you believe in the virgin birth (which is not the same or even mentioned in all four gospels) then around this time Mary was in deep contractions, like about to push out a baby human type of thing. 👶🏾 Let's just look past the little kids dressed as angels singing First Noel huddled around a plastic baby with staffs and poetic goddess metaphors here, just for a moment. This was before all the schopol functions and 25 day countdown, even before rosaries and all Holy Mother Vibes of the New Age. Mary wasn't even a 'mother' quite yet, she was ripe for certain, yet still in between. Just a kid, having a freaking BABY! From child to Divine Mother in one fell swoop, angels included. Ain't she lucky? Not really, if you know how the story fully plays out. Reverent and Holy, yes of course, but dude, that's a really intense process, and also super graceful at once, that birthing of The Messiah business.

Let's give this chick some credit! 👏🏽👊🏾🤱🏾

🗣 Do you want to know the REAL story of Jesus' birth? The REALLY REAL? Well, when you strip away the spirituality of it all which hadn't even happened yet, HOMEGIRL GAVE BIRTH AT 14 IN A HAY PILE BESIDE SOME STINKY DONKEYS. She was probably really loud about it and I'm betting money you could hear her over those sweet seraphim angels singing their super epic birth song to the baby Jesus, who I'm sure came out crying just like the rest of us all pink and bloody with that weird white afterbirth stuff all over his body, all wrinkled and shaking. Ok ok, maybe he was one of those magical babies born in the sac, still all cocooned in his Holy Water fresh from the womb. It wouldn't surprise me. He was human, but also Divine, after all. That's the whole point of all this. HUMAN AND DIVINE. Let's not over glamorize this, people! Just like the rest of us, She wailed and He cried and Angels sang and it was still just a humaning BIRTHing. SHE BIRTHED THE SUN. 👑🌞✨ Normal but highly favored Mary became Holy Mother God was born as a human. It's an age old story. Maybe you thought it was the other way around? That you were here to figure out how to be divine, but Yeshua's birth shows us clear as the full moon that we are born to be our best at being HUMAN, and that IS divine. 👂 Do you hear what I hear? Let those who have ears to hear, LISTEN.


Since the beginning of time humans have always known the Sun, for without it we would not have this life, and always known Him, for Christ is timeless. Just as the tiny little house lights twinkle this time at Christmas, there will always be a light in the night, The Holy Star that Wise Men still seek and the Soul Still Holds as Solstice rises and falls and we finally drop our separate walls.

Back to the basics...🌹 Birth is nasty and they make it look all nice in the nativity scenes with everyones robes all clean, but in reality that process (as amazing as it is because it's human life) is still and always was totally ew. Blood and 💩 and heck, she might have even puked. He was 'the star' of the show 2000 years later (well, second to consumerism, and third if you count The Beatles) but really Mary is the full on SHERO here for birthing total Messiah vibes so we could have tickle me elmo in the early 90's. It's all connected, right? Or did we miss the point at the center somewhere and get turned around only to end up at your local shopping center.....

Aaaaanywho, I digress but not really, because 2018 was a rough year and we really ought to reflect on the nuggets of knowledge, crap and gold that we can extract from that swirling whirling sideswipe of a year. "Hot damn", as we'd say in The South. Bless your hearts, quite literally, because things got real and now it's almost over but according to OTHER calendars 🥳 this year really just began! And it will begin again, and again, and again, depending on where you are and from what perspective you see it. 🎋

🧠 Think of it this way, if you are on the Northern Hemisphere 🌎 then you are about to celebrate the WINTER solstice and it might be cold where you are, even snowing. Now, just because you're experiencing snow and a very real sensation that it is actually freezing because you see frozen water everywhere, doesn't mean that it isn't summer and 100 degrees somewhere else; ie. Australia. It's feckin' hot down there right now, mate. Got the air con on in the yank tank and Santa's in his bloody board shorts while yer rockin' the triple layers. You feel me? The South sees it from a different direction and angle then the North. The West sees opposite from the East. Each direction is a way to devotion and reverence, no matter which way you see it, all directions lead to CENTER. All paths, all directions, eventually, lead hOme. 👠⭕️❓

🌟 So Mary birthed God (um, no big deal...). Fast forward two millennia now we all shop and gather and eat and sing and decorate and pray and buy more stuff than even God knows what to do with... and then throw away the packages and pollute the oceans. WWJD? *For serious tho*. What would baby Jesus say? Or the Sun God Ra? What would your Mother (Earth) say? However you want to see it and which timeline you want to vibe with, we have some work to do and a major responsibility to uphold. Do you think the ancient ones who these stories are about would see us today and be proud? I want to say YES to that, but with the way things have been showing up on the news I cannot say that our ancestors, Jesus Joseph Mary and all the whales included, would speak highly of our collective character as humans being... 🐋...as we are being out of harmony in very small and very large ways. I trust we can heal for the next in line....

I am reading and healing through the work of a wonderful woman of color. *Speaking of WoC, I guarantee Mary was brown, too, just for the "Caucasian Christmas" record, and this the white-washed blond haired Jesus imagery is just outdated and straight up FALSE. You think anyone born in the middle east, especially back then, was fair skinned? Doubtful and a colonizing control method, if you ask me and others who see things from a different lens*. This woman I am talking about, her name is #LalyaSaad. It is because of her hard work and inspiration I was even able to write that statement emphasized in asterisks* up there. She speaks on "being a good ancestor", and has encouraged me as a white woman to do my research on how my own heritage and HERstory have been stolen and erased, so I can be of some help to others who were enslaved by certain lineages of my people. Her work is profound. This concept of "being a good ancestor" shook my soul and stirred me from slumber around the type of ancestor I am being and will become. I know I can't heal the totality of cultural wounding, or be a total #plasticfreemermaid all in this very instant, but I can acknowledge that my ancestors are more than just my great grannies; that they are also the dead, the ones I hurt consciously or unconsciously through unmetabolized racism, the turtles, oceans 🌀 and bees 🐝 and perhaps this awareness will at least help me buy a reusable fork, throw away a little less plastic, and do my part to end colonizing ways of being for the earth AND for the ones YET to come. One small step for NON-(WO)MANKIND and the seven generations to follow. Helping give to voice the voiceless, to the 'other kind' that doesn't even live on land...🐢 but tends to the sacred reefs and the oxygen making oceanic waters, the lifeblood of this world. 🌊

Without the ocean, and the animals in it, we would not be able to breathe the air, because the ocean keeps it in check for the whole PLANET to be able to breathe! So as you scurry around at the mall or on Amazon just remember that Mary gave beautiful/gross human birth from a salty ocean like womb to a divine flesh human incarnate and the ocean needs you to use less plastic, and baby Jesus needs you to stop being an asshole to whoever you're being one too, so wrap your gifts consciously and REMEMBER the reason for the season!

It's LOVE! ❣️ Which doesn't always appear as light.


The book of John does not state the virgin birth. It is actually my favorite book. Not because of that reason, but that reason is definitely on the list of why I like this book the best. It's different. It speaks on the Word. In the beginning was the Word, and the word was made flesh. No astrology of the stars or stable story here. The most famous quote from the book of John is verse 3:16. 'For God so LOVED the world'.... is how it starts. 'That He gave His only Son, so none will perish but have eternal life', it says. Now, with this part I want to just toss a wave in there and make that this can be gender neutral and all inclusive; Creation LOVED YOU SO MUCH, that IT gave birth to the THE LIGHT so YOU could SEE CLEARLY and BE SAVED FROM YOURSELF! So you don't have to repeat all of this karmic loopdie loop patterning. To literally not suffer, and simply shine.

Is it possible? ⁉️

I feel it is and avatars have walked this earth before us, but it takes true alchemy. Not the shiny object on the outside free webinar kind, but the kind behind the scenes where tears fill your whole mouth and snot runs down your face. Not just the tantric priestess in Bali retreat alchemy but the kind where there is no sex, no sacrament or even stimulation but the inner place of peace and rest where nothing/everything is allowed to exist and be as it is. Yeshua aka Jesus, was a true alchemist, so was his Mother Mary and his Companion Mary Magdalene and all of the buddhas that helped him along The Way. This is why we honor him this time of year and if you are educated in this particular fractal of spirituality, and/also a person of faith then maybe you understand the deeper secrets of these Christed teachings of The Way, The Word and The Wonder. ❄️

Call me old school, but all ya'll out there who know how to use your mind and also your heart at the same time, yes you.... you know that this whole Holy Days season goes WAY beyond "Christianty", right? Like, way far back. The First recorded documentations through pictures and shapes point to a fertile mother. SHE IS THE STAR OF THE SHOW, if you smell what I'm cookin'. 🍳 Ever heard of Constantine and The Council of Nicea? Look that sh*t up. Especially if you feel any discomfort reading this. I strongly encourage you to educate yourself on *how Christianity was created*.

➡️ Shameless Plug Sidenote: I'm offering a fb LIVE series coming up that is just some real talk; me interviewing my Dad over the holy day break. I'm going home to Orangeburg and will air the sessions between Monday and Thursday mornings. Join us, have some tea or coffee and tune in here to my page to listen to my "former Baptist preacher guitar building prodigy very talkative but chill plus really well educated father" school us all on some very interesting topics. I promise to ask him provoking questions and will also take as many Q and A's as possible. My dad knows some deep theology and also has inquired deeply with his open heart over the years, and has some powerful gnosis to drop on us. I want this to be shared with my relatively "New Age Type Medicine People Transformational Festival Junkie Societally Fringed Fae Folk" network. So, if you have a desire to dig underneath the consumer based Jesus/Santa facade and into a real place of alchemical and unexplainable but very real unconditional love, tune in with us! FB and chill with me and my dad David White over the 'christmas break', to talk story on the origins of Christmas, Solstice and beyond, this coming week beginning Monday the 24th through Thursday the 27th. 🎵☕️🌲🎸

Ok, all shameless plugs aside, back to the point. 👇🏼

The Christian Religion was created by a roman emperor on purpose to synchronize with the pagan Holy Days so that slowly but surely the ancient ways would be eradicated and dissolved, disguised as children's stories and catchy songs. 🦋 Think of it this way instead, remember how East and West see things from opposite sides, because they are two different directions? Well, they all agree on one thing and that's baby Jesus. Those Three Wisemen traveled a super duper long way from the East to meet this little dude and either they got super early notice as if maybe they had an angel messenger too... if they got there when homie was born from a billion miles away by foot and camel, and they definitely didn't fly Southwest . PLUS, the point is that they followed a star (we are back to the fun virgin/venusian birth version obviously) and they brought really epic presents to this holy baby boy. Trust the witch in me, yes the 'herbalistmidwifenaturalone' who knows through experience and research that frankincense, myrrh, and gold are all three extremely healing and potent substances that are still very valuable today for health and spiritual wellbeing. Follow those Wise Men's and the Wise Herbal Woman's ways, for the ancients knew, and I don't think they would bring baby Jesus anything from Wally World. #brerakfreefromplastic.

🔥 So here we are fam, it's the Return of The Light! The light is within, not just in some story or song of silent Christmas night. Yes, a MARY Christmas to you as HER birth pangs are REAL; let us not forget her voice. And in all of the suffering to come, leave space to rejoice. Would Mary have still been able to give birth knowing what she would witness approximately 33 years later? Knowing that from a dead tree her dead son would also be hung? Like the mothers of Ramon and Jarren (yes, lynchings happened in 2018), even the Divine Mother herself knows the suffering they share in. Young men are murdered still for the color of skin, and this is the world we are living in. The Mother of Jesus watcher her Son die too, and that is just one example of what humanity can do. It's up to us to educate each other and change, especially if you believe in His or Her name. Whoever you pray to or if you don't pray at all, it's time to help humanity brace it's own fall. We are all going down to the bottom of this bottle, but then baby believe be it's up and out at FULL throttle. For each baby being born and each day the sun rises, it us up to use to release our disguises and FULLY arrive JUST as WE ARE ready to SHINE because this RETURN OF THE LIGHT is truly Divine! ✨🌈✨

Guess what?! TAG, you're IT! Did you know that you are REALLY the star of this bit? This part's about YOU even though you thought it was presents,🎀 or little baby Jesus but it's really about PRESENCE....

Like I said before...


YOU ARE the LIGHT, a descendant from The One above.

You are God's child too! Not just JC. ✝️🔯

We are ALL the inheritors of our own SOVEREIGNTY.

🖌 Thanks for reading this mix of poetry and prose as I take a moment to receive this rose. The fragrant immense eminence of my own sweet nectar, sinking deeper into myself, letting go of the hectic. It's not under wrapping paper or even this skin, it's held in a container that you can't buy or win. It's not between the sheets or after the final, or in that cold beer or even that sweet vintage vinyl. I love art but even beauty can be distracting, when silence is really pivotal to the questions your asking. Sometimes you have to BE STILL, STOP and LISTEN. The answer is in each infinitesimal snow flake as it falls and glistens. Each tiny one just melts on your tongue but put them together and a blizzard can come. I'll wrap it up with this, like a present for only you. You are the gift. Yep. It's true. 💝

I love each of you very much.

If you have felt like there was no light at the end of the tunnel this 2018 you were not alone and now we are fully in the birth canal and at the end of that tunnel is an age old story, featuring YOU and YOUR creation and WHAT YOU ARE, in fact, also birthing. She does give birth, that Mother Divine and You are born, once again. And will be born again and again, until the cycle ends. Each round of the Wheel has it's own wisdom to share to simply treat most everyone you meet with kindness and care. This is the true Christmas spirit and I encourage you to give the gift of your time, presence and patience this season as well all pop out of this portal together, in True Union ~ The True Essence of Christ Light, Love and Forgiveness 🖤

May your final days of this calendar year be healing, inspirational, fulfilled and spent giving to yourself and others. May it also be slow and steeped in the watery womb of a creative portal. We need each other now more than ever. Take time to yourself and then give out what you've got, then go back in to do it all again! Sending you a *big hug* and lots of mermaid vibes from the sunny shores of the Atlantic ⚓️

I pray the peace of Father Sun, Divine Earth Mother, and Holy Child Within each of us fully arrives and anchors this simple and self-aware love this Soulstice, and that ripples sweetly into the farthest corners of this multi-verse of cosmic creation and BEYOND! Be Well, Be*Loveds. 💋

- In the Spirit of This Holy Season -
✨Shellie Marie White Light✨

be the light of the world.

be the light of the world.