Full Moon, Full Circle, Full Spectrum


~ *WELCOME, 2018* ~



Happy Super Full Moon New Years Day! Did you know that there will be TWO Full Moons this month? In case you didn't already know, that second Full Moon on Jan. 31st will be a Blue Moon; two full moons in one calendar month. Amongst all of the astrological and social excitement of the New Year, I chose to celebrate mostly in solitude to open this new chapter of 2018.

Something tells me, "Save your energy, kid. You're gonna need it." 

SOULFUL SILENCE                                                                                           

From the comfort of my childhood home, I write and contemplate this day, this year, this next cycle and season of change. I rang in this New Year like a badass Crone, yet I am present with the ripeness of these remaining Maiden moments of mine. In stillness, sacred rest, a walk through the camellia blossoms, and a hot salt bath, I let prayers fall from my lips and meditation settle my rebel spirit. Standing around drinking coffee in the kitchen, listening to the Rev speak some solid logic and truth around scripture and history, and the poets who wrote the Bible, I learn. Mother makes hot grits and the cats lie in slumber by the fireside, I nap with them. A quiet day. A contemplative time. A blessed moment of simplicity, one a I feel my future self cherishing already.

Today, January 1st, is also a Super Full Moon (Gemini/Cancer cusp). This illuminating effect on the New Year brings us plenty of light, in a time of cyclical darkness. The ritual of Christ-mass honoring the Birth of The Son ushers us into this midwinter window, complete with the frayed threads of the ancient Pagan celebrations for the Return of the Sun. The cold of the Northern Hemisphere as we hibernate through the Winter, beckons us to turn inward and tend the inner fire, resting in the warmth of the Inner Light of Christ. Death is at the doorstep, yet life is just beneath the surface, and will sprout in perfect rhythm with the tides of time. A promise of Resurrection yet to come. This moon shines a spotlight on whatever we choose to see with clarity and focused VISION; resolutions, goals, dreams, budding relationships, career changes, dietary shifts, giving thanks for old, shattered structures and resources for renewal, rebirth, rebuilding. We use the extra light of this Super Full Moon to ignite our place and purpose in the Body of Christ.


I love what Patricia Liles writes, in her commentary on The Power Path Full Moon Update.    "Full Moon in Cancer is the Moon’s Moon.  The Moon is magnificent in her own sign.  Cancer, sign of the Great Mother, is a sign of comforting love that deeply nourishes our emotional bodies, represents fertility and gestation within the moistness of the womb, and embodies the circle of security and protection of the family...Our sensitivity is magnified, our receptivity enhanced, our intuition becomes fully available.  Emotions are the fuel for intentions, so it’s time to dream your heart’s desire.  How do you want it to feel when you bring your dream into reality?  That’s the place to start...With the Moon exactly trined to Neptune (creating a triangle), we have access to deep imagination, dreamtime, merging, healing.  Give yourself the luxury of whatever stimulates your ability to cross the veil between the visible and the invisible world and lean into the oceanic, invisible, and non-ordinary realms of creation.  Explore Neptune’s relationship to the pineal gland and your psychic/empathic abilities.  Access the Love that binds this middle world reality together.  With Mars powerfully placed in Scorpio, a sign it traditionally ruled, you have the energy of the divine masculine available to take actions needed to bring all those dreams into reality... When you look up at this beautiful Full Moon, remember it is a SuperMoon and really IS larger than usual, because it’s closer to the Earth.  We are blessed to start our calendar year in such a splendid way.  Cancer creates a beautiful container of domestic protection where what we value personally can grow.  We begin our year in full, ripe fruitfulness reflected by the Moon’s light illuminating the darkness, a time to honor what has come into fruition in your life, and with Cancer a time to honor all the changing phases of the Moon, Changing Woman.  Lay down your fear of change on to the altar of endless Moon cycles.  Honor the waters of your body and your planet and the breasts and stomach that are sacred to Cancer.  Honor the lineage of your Mother’s people.  Draw down the full power of the Moon making it available to you when you need it most."

I love all of her references to the Divine Mother. I like to think of Mother Mary, and what it must have been like for her to surrender her womb fully to The Fruit of The Holy Spirit. Yeshua is the Light that guides the way, even the spheres of the heavens and planets themselves sing a song of victory and Glory to God, for we have already seen the Light win. No amount of darkness can dim the All Luminous Light of the One! It is the Beacon of all beacons, the hope of hopes, the most direct Way, a promised Path. This flawless Light is the source of the fire that lights all lamps, to every end of the Universe and beyond. It is from this Light that all Light is born, and throughout the ages it holds the torch, calling us to meet our Maker, and unify in a harmonic orchestration. It is all a stage!


In order to shine brighter, I used this full moon energy wisely. I deactivated my personal facebook account today, a symbolic action for me to help access more self-discipline and activate a deeper level of creative capacity. I am choosing to focus more on my gift of writing, which you are experience as we "speak". Stay posted to my professional facebook page, which I will be honing and using a a home base for my facebook lives, instagram sharing and blog posts. Looking forward to this "focused" approach to social media (an area I struggle to have self-control in). Here's to a productive use of facebook and email in the year to come!


I don't really like to "make resolutions", because there is such a stigma around people failing/falling off the bandwagon within just a few weeks. Statistically speaking, only 8% of Americans keep their resolutions. A temporary fix leads to temporary results, or none at all. Instead, I choose to refine my lifestyle! There are two major refining touches I placing upon my daily life this 2018; the first is to be as vegan as possible, and second is to throw away as little plastic as possible. The little girl within me just wants to save the rainforests and the whales, and the best way to begin is to do my part in keeping plastic out of the ocean, contributing as little as I can to the destruction caused by factory farming (of plants and animals).  If at first I don't succeed, I will get back up and try again! I think it's important that even if we "eff up", we value the process of self compassion and CONTINUE on with our new lifestyle choice even if we make a mistake. That's life, right? Keep going. Don't quit and be all hard on yourself when you muck up once, twice, even three times. Stay with it. Encourage yourself and each other. RESOLVE to be gentle with these powerful changes you are working on making new habit!


Today I enjoy college football with my dad (Tiger fan by blood), a glass of red wine, homemade tea blends, squishy bedroom attire and my last tastes of grains and sugar before getting serious with my annual cleansing. Minimal rules. Maximum love; total peace of heart, safe amongst my most inner circle, my momma and daddy (and four cat siblings, too). My roots. Humble beginnings. From my traditional upbringing I carry with me the simple truths that were instilled within my heart. My family produced beautiful fruits. By our actions we are known, and we can see who a person really is by the "fruit" they produce around them. Our fruits reveal the quality of our roots. I am so grateful to have a foundation rooted in God, and Love, family devotion and an understanding of Charity. May God bless you and keep you in beauty today and every day. Happy 2018! 

(Shameless plug: There is still time to join in the intimate and transformational container of The Inner Beauty Mystery School ~ We begin New Moon this month! Set up your appointment HERE to apply.)



Being Undone

God is taking off all of my clothes.

My masks; they are falling, shattered on the floor.

I stand naked, before my Creator, desiring and fearing to be seen all at once.

I was woven tightly, by my own will.

And now, I am being undone.

This Scorpio New Moon is intense. Scorpio, in general, is an intense and imaginative time of year. I personally have a deep appreciation for the darkness, the depth, and the unraveling this season brings. I was born for it. Quite literally, I just had my 33rd birthday on November 10th. Being born to this sign is a constant death and rebirth. I am always changing. Cycling. Ebbing. Flowing. Dying. Growing. Rinse. Repeat. This is the Feminine Flow. It's only painful when I try to fight it.

Resistance is truly futile. The earth will eventually take back our borrowed bones. Our money and possessions will pass on. There is nothing to cling to. So why do we? What is this clinging? It is simply a reaching for That Which We Know We Are. No person, place or thing will ever match this longing for our True Self, our Divine Origin. This is our completion, our dissolution into Oneness. But in the meantime, in this world of duality, we substitute people, places and things for our what we truly desire. To Be One with Our Maker.

The moment we begin to truly embark on this path, anything that is between you and God falls away. The more we grasp, cling, and define ourselves by these people, places and things that fall away, the harder it feels. I am not defined by my name, my career, my partner, my faith, my gender, my beliefs, my addictions, my friends, my family or even my body. None of this is really who I AM. This....this is the undoing.

I feel I am slowly unraveling. Not in a 'I'm going crazy' kind of way. It's more like, "I recognize I am actually not in my full expression of self because I am still trying to be in control", kind of way. I am letting the dismantling occur. There are many masks I no longer wish to carry. I am praying for grace and mercy along The Way. I am seeking only that which serves my soul. No substitutions. This...this is the undoing.

In being undone I find myself surrendering for the first time in a long while. The last time I allowed myself to become undone, I left Florida, left my relationship, sold many belongings, gave many more away, and let God lead the way. Seven years later, I am being undone yet again. This time, it is to explore inner space. Last time, was a grand adventure, which there are still many to come. Yet this undoing is different. It is an unfolding, a revealing, a reversal, a new book. This time, as God peels away my layers, I am watching. I am observing and noticing each piece as it is placed exactly where it was always meant to be. The greatest lesson here? All of me is exquisite. Especially my darkness. This...this is the undoing.

Today, on this New Moon I begin an adventure much like before, but in reverse. I am leaving California, picking up my belongings from Austin, Texas, and flapping my wings back East. To Florida, I return. This time, to the up and coming eclectic city of Jacksonville, FL. I wasn't excited about this when it was presented to me, but after much prayer and practice, I see the Light. I am part mermaid after all, so the Atlantic will always feel like my home. It was the sea I first set foot, the first magical shoreline I saw. I am returning to my roots.

I left to find myself. I have found that the greatest treasure has always been within me, rediscovering it time and time again. As I return to the East Coast, I know that nothing is permanent, and even in this new becoming.... I will be undone again. And again. I am content in this process. The weaving, the kiln, the garden in full bloom. The burning, the breaking the tilling of the soil. Autumn is being undone into Winter. And Winter will be undone to Spring. The colors will fall to the Autumn's breeze, and then it repeats again. We are One with our Mother, and this is Her Way. Let us rest in her Heart, and trust she is holding us tenderly.

Let God undo this one you have become.




You <3


PS: If you are ready to rise above the mundane world we live in and tap deeper into the potency of this season, this time in humanity, let's connect. I am here to help empower feminine leaders, aspiring creatives, wives and mothers wanting to step more authentically into their sensual and sexual expression. Email me HERE. We will set up a call to chat <3



Reflections on France ~ {Part One of Three} ~ Mary Magdalene

My Magdalene Pilgrimage.

France. My most recent destination to deepen and unravel my studies of the historical and mystical character Mary Magdalene. I spent two weeks, post Eclipse, this past August steeping myself in Her mystery, magic and myth.

Do you know who Mary Magdalene was 2000 years ago? Do you know who she is for humanity today? These are the questions I have pondered since childhood, as a Baptist ministers daughter, growing up in churches in the South. I read (and read about) the Bible, the Gnostic gospels, the Coptic scrolls, the Pistis Sophia, and and so on.  I have shelves of books on Mary Magdalene and her connection to Yeshua (AKA Jesus Christ). There are beautiful ledgends that have been formed over the years, some stories feel more truthful than others. Either way, I like to get a feel for myself about these things, so I had to explore. A few places on the map stood out to me, and ignited in me a spiritual quest, a mystical journey. Places with lore, mysticism, whispers and myth.

France was first on the list. Soon to come my pilgrimage to sacred Yeshua/Magdalene sites, which began in the South of France, will continue on in Egypt, India, and all of the lands of my own heritage in Avalon, Great Britain. This extended quest, is really a journey home; to myself. To the vast landscape within. Wanderlust has it's own unique and effective medicine, this is for certain. The physical presence on these sacred sites themselves does something profound to the DNA within our cells. An activation occurs, and information is received on genetic, lineage level. Especially when you stand on the land that was at one point, your roots. Your Point of Origin. Where your soul started it's journey on this planet, many moons, lifetimes ago. Like The Alchemist, the adventure always leads you back to where you started, and it's truly a journey within, to the depths of the unknown regions of yourself. Yet, there is an irreplaceable magic and reverence in standing on these sacred grounds with your own two feet, eyes wide open, breathing in the crisp, clean air. Taking in the sites around you, allowing your imagination to expand.

Now, to answer the question: Who is Mary Magdalene? Many know, and many do not. Those who really know, know something that has been kept secret and safe now for two millennia. This is the secret of the Holy Grail, which many still physically seek; Knights, Kings and robbers alike have tried to obtain this Divinely Feminine, mysterious object of power. To put it simple and less inflated terms, Mary Magdalene was a companion and apostle to our cosmic brother, Christ Yeshua, also known as Jesus here in the Americas. We know she was in the Bible as the Apostle of Apostles (which means most cherished of His followers, as she paid very close attention to Christ's teachings), and we know She was present at the crucifixion and Resurrection, which demonstrates a very loving and deep dedication to her Teacher, Friend and Beloved Christ Yeshua. She is one of many Mary's that followed and ministered WITH Christ.

How does my affection for this woman lead me to France? Well, rumor has it that Mary Magdalene ended up in Gaul, now Southern France, along with three other Mary's, including Yeshua's mother, Sarrah (the 'Egyptian maid"), and two male disciples. Legend has it they arrived by boat, after being arrested and sent out to sea in a boat with no motor, no sail, no oar and no rutter. They we sent to their death by Roman authorities for their affilation with Yeshua and advocacy of His teachings. However, the winds of Divine Love set them safely on the shores of Southern France and it was there they performed Miracles and shared the Good News of all the wonders they witnessed in the presence of our Brother Master Christ Yeshua. These women were all present for many acts of Unconditional Love being a healer of death and sickness.

I went to the places, which I will describe in later blogs in detail, that were of the most interesting regarding the worship of Mary Magdalene in France. They have her relics and remains in two different places, one place being a church crypt and the other being a mile long hike up to a silent monastery built into the side of a mountain (where She spent her last 30 years of life in prayer and meditation). I am feeling very blessed to have been on this Quest to discover who this woman was, so that a light can be shone on the Feminine Aspect of Christ. It is time to observe this 2000 + year old story through a different lens. This will create a tremendous healing for the people of this planet. There is such a deep "Jesus" wound, scarring from religious dogmas that shamed and persecuted. This feminine perspective is just the balm needed as this time, during our collective awakening as a flowering species.

Thank you so much for entertaining my musings on subjects that don't often get approached at the dinner table. It's not water cooler talk. This type of conversation, and other deep feminine oriented threads are present in my facebook group ~ The Wild Woman's Renaissance. If you would like to continue to connect with other women who are interested in these types of topics! I share in there, the things I would not share here or on my personal page. It is a safe space for women, a very few select men, to dive deep into a container that is not structured, but clean and well contained. Mary Magdalene is just one of many faces of the Wild Woman. There are also many versions of this currently active Renaissance. You're role is yours to choose! The awakening is here. The Love is real. The adventure is at hand. Let us all be inspired by Her Holy Desire and Sacred Example!